i believe..believe that the truth will be revealed one day,the white truth..despite all the hearsay and hurt i’m going through,all i can do now is be true to myself and wish for the best..i know things will improve..
i’m a legal student..but i have a great fascination over sciences..i have an insect bottled up,sealed,without knowing what species it was..after a few weeks,i saw some fungus growing on the abdomen and other areas..at first sight i thought it was eggs..then when i had a closer look,its actually some fungal pathogens!having it magnified,it grew into yellow spheres with a stalk supporting it..just like those we saw during our biology classes a few years back..curiously,i looked it up on the internet and it is indeed parasites,but unknown of its type..it’s a diseases suffered by insects called mycoses..it is a seemingly popular method used as pest control where the fungi invades and kill their hosts..The fungus penetrates the fly’s cuticle,proliferates inside the fly,and,shortly after the death of the fly,grows out of the cadaver and produces spores that eject in a "shower" which results in the white corona you see surrounding the cadaver on the window glass..typically the insect will die in an elevated position stuck to the substrate by its proboscis with legs extended,wings raised,and the abdomen tilted upward..the fungus produces the scent of a female of the species of insect attacked,causing other males to try to mate and therefore become infected,themselves..well,i got all revolted and tensed up reading the article despite the fact that i had it all sealed up..here’s a picture of the insect..
note the yellow frizz on the body..it somehow reminds me of pop corns..
sigh..having some tumble in life again and i don’t usually tell my problems to anyone so i have no one to turn to,save only one,the person i trust most but no longer around since last year..it really lightens my heart after having confided my troubles to someone i really trust..problems are driving me insane!and it hurts deeply..nothing seems to be in favour for me..but i believe the truth will be disclosed one day and good will come out of evil..well,i’m not gonna talk about my problems here..more of a monologue now..hmm..i’ve turned over a new leaf and did my very best to make up for the past..no matter what i’ve been through and what i’m currently dealing with,i can prevail,and prevail with dignity and honour..i practically did and said anything and acted in ways that were nowhere close to who i really was..but at least they were all the truth..my past wasn’t quite pleasant i have to say..and i’m working through everyday realities of life with hope that i won’t be swallowed by my past..i believe things will soon improve..
2nd july 2007 - first day of uni..during orientation..i had a whole new experience on alot of things..had slight cultural shock with the change of environment as Taylor’s is a whole different world all together..well,i won’t compare..there’s always the good and bad sides of everything..
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a dirt cheap chair i saw on the first day in level 2..
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broken pane not replaced..
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ancient air-conditioner in level 2..
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reading room once existed in level 2..it has now shifted to level 5..it got even smaller..you know what i mean..cut cost and all..
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7.19..the usual class we use..it has a particular smell (i think its from the old carpet) every morning when you walk in..well,most of the time i’ll be the one who turn on the lights at 7.30 every morning..got scared after ms villie told us about the creepy stories at 10th floor..
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days goes by..the happiness,the blues,the exhaustions,the excitements,the misunderstandings,friendships,fun,anger,a mixture of everything completes another cycle..
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24th april 2008 - officially the last day of classes..
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EXAMS!!!for the first time ever i didn’t sleep for nights..you could see it from my face..all worn off and unemotional..just vomitting whatever i stuffed in my brains..you know..i’ve always been an average kid getting average marks..so gotta cramp in a little more with hope to achieve something more meaningful..
well yeah..its 14th may today and i’m writing here in the com lab just after my finals..well,one huge thing i’ve learnt is to let loose everything which i wasn’t quite good at in the past..i was easily bothered with the petty stuff..it trained me to be stronger tho..hmm..theres no longer any grudges i wanna hold..i wanna live an easy going life..whatever happens,happens..another thing that has dramatically changed me is trust..i’ve learnt a whole new perspective of trust after stepping into this uni..the person i trust most can turn out to be someone wholly different..well,just something that runs through my mind tho..apart from these,nothing much in me changed..sarcarsm is still beautiful,caricatures are still part and parcel of life,banters simply draws a smile..yeah thats me 
ah,my year as a sophomore will begin on 15th september this year..looking forward to creating a better year..a fresh new start a brand new me..
till the next post,bye..
Will you count me in?
I’ve been awake for a while now
You’ve got me feelin’ like a child now
Cause everytime I see your bubbly face
I get the tingles in a silly place
It starts in my toes
And I crinkle my nose
Where ever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Where ever you go
The rain is fallin’ on my window pane
But we are hidin’ in a safer place
Under cover stayin dry and warm
You give me feelins that I adore
They start in my toes
Make me crinkle my nose
Where ever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Where ever you go
What am I gonna say
When you make me feel this way
I just-mmm..
It starts in my toes
Make me crinkle my nose
Where ever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Where ever you go
Dada dada dadada dada dum..
Mmm mmm..
I’ve been asleep for a while now
You tuck me in just like a child now
Cause every time you hold me in your arms
I’m comfortable enough to feel your warmth
It starts in my soul
And I lose all control
When you kiss my nose
The feelin shows
Cause you make me smile baby
a song by Colbie Caillat - Bubbly
this post is going to be different as im gonna type aimlessly.its now 4 in the morn and i can’t get away from this pathetic screen.hell what fuck uni im in?its the worst ive ever been into with so many gossips and fuck up people in it.they’re having a spree like what my friend described it as "hell hath no fury like a woman scorned" spree.people no longer listen..they just shut their ears.no discussion at all.what we term as talking conditions no longer exist.it was so different back then in taylor’s and high.things had been so blahdy rough since ive entered to this hell hole.i ain’t a cut diamond.i have rough edges too.thick droves of it.i make mistakes too.but i don’t deserve such severe indictments.i missed the yesteryears-where being naive and playful isn’t perceived wrong.im beginning to feel the coldness out there.not many have feelings.i no longer believe in love,true relationships besides being such a shy loser in it.friendships seems artificial here too.some of them are a bunch of heartless brute.it hurts.its already so tremendously bad in my freshman year and i dare not imagine what awaits for me in uni for my year as a sophomore.it sucks.now i don’t know what shits ive just typed but hell im not bothered i just needed somewhere to spill.so sorry folks,my blog is a lil messed up with these emo shits.but who cares..
slowly i shut my eyelids..closed my ears with my wet hands..the world seems silent for a moment..then i heard water ripples running down my head,streaming down my body..it gradually became louder..i was taking a shower.it rained earlier in the noon so it was sort of cold..the water seems fine..warm and soothing but there is one thing that remained cold..my heart..it sank and soon i realised tears are filling up my eyes.it didn’t took a minute before they conjoined with water that runs down my cheeks..everything seems different from the past..i missed the yesteryears..those moments that had lit up my heart,brightens my days..drawn the biggest smile on my face..the exaltation vanished..i witness them fade away..
You are a softie! Loving, gentle, warm and sympathetic by nature is the banana lover. You often lack in self-confidence and are quite timid by nature. People often take advantage of your sweet temperedness, and sheer vulnerability to a situation. You adore your partner both for their mental and physical beauty! Your relationship is always in harmony!
not environmental..not the green that the green m&m is supposed to symbolize..actually maybe a bit..but the been on a roller coaster too long and gonna puke green..this christmas break is driving me insane!sitting at home having my nose stuck into my keyboard and rot..i’m getting abit whiney too *sniff*
btw,read this srticle about stuffed turkeys on the net..not sure if you all know wht a turducken is..but it is a turkey..stuffed by a duck..that has been stuffed by a chicken..imagine putting that things together..well..it is not that bad.it is all de-boned and people can choose what they want..for the asian folk..i think they can start making turkey stuffed with goose stuffed with chicken… giving the rise to the turGOOKen.
a friend is one to whom one can pour out all the contents of one’s heart, chaff and grain together knowing that the gentlest of hands will take and sift it, keep what is worth keeping and with a breath of kindness blow the rest away.
-arabian proverbs-
